Once again…I’ve been thinking about how often we use the word “but” in our day. I know it’s time to get up…but I’m just too tired. I love my job…but my boss is just too hard on me. I’m so thankful for my kids…but they sure drive me crazy sometimes. I know the person who works next to me needs the Lord…but I’m sure I’m not the one to tell him. We say one thing…but we often feel the need to clarify what we said.
I’ve been thinking a lot about the word “but”, because I’ve caught myself saying it quite often lately. Oh, I don’t admit it out loud so others can hear…but it sure has been a word on repeat in my mind. Why? Because this week I am having another surgery which we hope will be the beginning of a turn-around for my health. The problem is that the scenario that keeps running through my mind is: Hopefully this surgery will begin a healing journey for me…but…what if it doesn’t? I know I just need to trust…but…and then I’ve given an excuse as to why it’s too hard. I know I need to trust God with my health…but…I’ve been through so much and what if this surgery doesn’t help? I know I need to trust God for whatever happens today, tomorrow and beyond…but…I’m so scared of what might occur that will be out of my control.
Bingo. Once again it comes back to wanting to be in control. To completely trust Him, means that I take my hands off this situation I am facing, and allow Him to be the One with the steering wheel. It means that I don’t just say that I trust Him, and then keep taking the reins back over, trying to manipulate Him to do what I think is best. It means that I trust Him to work out every detail…in His timing…and for His honor and glory.
When I look at this logically, I must ask myself, Why?
1. Why wouldn’t I trust Him with my health, since He is the One who “made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb.” (Psalm 139:13)
2. Why wouldn’t I trust Him with my today, tomorrow and beyond, since His Word tells me to, “Trust in the Lord with all my heart; do not depend on my own understanding. Seek his will in all I do, and he will show me which path to take.” (Proverbs 3:5-6)
So today, I know I need to trust God. Period. No ands, ifs or buts. No excuses, no rationalizations, no manipulation. He alone is worthy of my complete trust, and honestly, He really doesn’t need any help from me
What about you? Do you find yourself saying that you trust God…but…your actions show something entirely different? Why not leave the driving to Him today. Your path may not take you where you think you should go…but…I’m confident your destination will put you exactly where He wants you to be.
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