Monday Morning Memo: A Time of Loss

If I had to sum up 2022 so far in one word…it would be the word “loss”.  So far this year, we have lost two very special members of our family.  I shared on January 24th about my dear Aunt Gerry who passed away. She served as a missionary nurse in Africa for 37 years and in everything she did, she always wanted God to be glorified, not her.  She knew how important each person was to her Jesus and she wanted to make sure everyone knew about His great love for them.

Then last Monday, my precious mother-in-law entered Heaven and saw her Jesus face to face.  I called this amazing woman “Mom” for over 40 years and losing her has been difficult.  When she began with Hospice care, they told us she probably had one to two days left…and this strong woman lived another three weeks.  Even though I knew she was ready to hear the words, “Welcome, my good and faithful servant”…I selfishly didn’t want to let her go.  But she was called Home and is now walking the streets of gold with those who have gone before her.

I don’t understand why we had to lose these dear family members so close together…but I know that God’s plan and timing are always perfect.  As I shared last week, I had re-read an article by Bronwyn Lea who shared about being convicted that when she prayed, instead of praying “God, make it better”, she needed to start praying, “God, make it count”.  I revealed that her words made me realize that many of my prayers these past weeks had been asking Jesus to just “make it better”…or “make it easier”…or “make it just how I thought things should be”.  Instead, I was convicted that I needed to be praying that what we are going through, will count for HIS glory.  I knew I needed to be asking for Him to make it count for eternity…that my witness of His faithfulness, day in and day out, will make others want to know my Jesus.

Today we have the viewing for Mom and then tomorrow I will officiate her funeral.  I know that on my own, I can’t do either of these things…but with God’s power, all things are possible.  I would appreciate your prayers that we will be able to be a light to those who come to celebrate Mom’s life and that I will share not my words, but words that come from our Jesus.  Again, my prayer is that our time together will count for His glory and will impact eternity.  That is definitely what Mom would want to happen.

These weeks have left me tired.  God has been so faithful to walk with us every step of the way, but it has taken its toll on me and has left me physically and mentally depleted. As a result, I have decided to take some time off to allow my mind and body to be refreshed.  As soon as I feel I am ready, I will begin writing again.  I have also been working on writing another YouTube video series, so I am hoping this time will help give me direction and insight into what God wants me to share in the days to come on my “The Image Seeker” channel which can be found at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC0szlDSgNBtFuzzNLBWzwMA.

Until then, I thank you so much for following my “ramblings” and for the love and support you have shown me.  I hope to be back soon sharing with you each Monday what God lays on my heart and with a new YouTube series.  May each of you be blessed in the days to come as you continue to seek His image!

“For you are my rock and my fortress; 

and for your name’s sake you lead me and guide me;

 you take me out of the net they have hidden for me, 

for you are my refuge. Into your hand I commit my spirit; 

you have redeemed me, O Lord, faithful God.”

Psalm 31:3-5

Monday Morning Memo: Make It Count

Life isn’t always wrapped in a box with a pretty bow, is it?  Oh, sometimes it might feel like we are in a box…but that box is torn and ripped and isn’t at all beautiful.  The walls feel like they are closing in around us and we may begin to feel claustrophobic.  There have been times recently when I have felt this way, since my mother-in-law has been under Hospice care for the past three weeks.  It has been a roller coaster ride and as of today, signs are showing us that she will soon see her Jesus face to face.

I’ve done a lot of praying these past weeks as I have sat beside her bed.  Praying for peace, praying for comfort, praying that she would not suffer.  Mom has always told us that she hoped when it was her time to pass, she would just go to sleep and wake up with Jesus.  She has not gotten her wish…these have not been easy days for her…and I have struggled with that fact.

These past days have made me think of an article I read several years ago which really spoke to me.  It was written by Bronwyn Lea and it was entitled, “One Little Word That Radically Changed My Prayers.”  Her words really shook me to the core.  If you haven’t read these words from Bronwyn, I highly recommend that you do.  If you have read them, I highly recommend you read them again!  I have read them over and over, and I am working hard to use her idea in my daily life.  You can find it at http://bronlea.com/2013/08/06/one-little-word-that-radically-changed-my-prayers/.

To give you just a short synopsis, this woman concluded that when she prayed, instead of praying “God, make it better”, she needed to start praying, “God, make it count”.  I so needed to read her words then and I needed to read them again now.  I realized that many of my prayers have been asking Jesus to just “make it better”…or “make it easier”…or “make it just how I think things should be”.  Instead, I need to be praying that what we are going through, will count for HIS glory.  I should be asking for Him to make it count for eternity…that my witness of His faithfulness, day in and day out, will make others want to know my Jesus.

Back in 2018, I wrote these words: “So what do we do when life isn’t what we bargained for?  We trust.  Not in ourselves, or our family, or our employer, or our all-important tech giant.  We trust in the One who created us.  The One who knows the number of hairs on our head.  The One who loves us more than we can even imagine.  The One who loves our spouse, our children, our friends…even more than we do.  The One who was nailed to a tree, so that we could spend eternity with Him.  The One whose plan for us is perfect, even if it doesn’t make sense to us.  The One who is our Jesus.”

I have tried this past week to trust my Jesus when things didn’t make sense. Instead of badgering Him to “fix” what has been happening, l have tried to pray for Him to make it count in light of eternity.  Honestly, I haven’t succeeded every day, but I think I did better and hopefully in this next week, I will trust my Jesus even more and will let Him lead me wherever will bring Him glory.

Some of Bronwyn’s final words were, “God, now that I think about it, please don’t just make it better. Not if it doesn’t count.”  WOW.  I’m not there yet…but I’m sure working on it.

What are you going through today?  Are you also just nagging Jesus over and over again to take away your current health problem…or work situation…or family issue?  Why not try something different this week and ask Him to make your problems count…for eternity…and for HIS glory.  What do you have to lose?   

“Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
    don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
    he’s the one who will keep you on track.
Don’t assume that you know it all.”

Proverbs 3:5-7a (The Message)

Monday Morning Memo: Faith in Action

Growing up, there was a story in the Bible that all the kids loved to hear; the story of Zacchaeus.  We would hear about him, sing about him and even do motions to act out his story. Everyone enjoyed talking about the little man who had to climb a tree to see Jesus.

 

As we know, Zacchaeus was not a favorite among his peers because he was a dreaded tax collector, an employee of the Roman government. Under the Roman system, men bid on the position of tax collector, pledging to raise a certain amount of money. Anything they raised over that amount was their personal profit. Luke says Zacchaeus was a wealthy man, so he must have extorted a great deal from the people and encouraged others to do so as well. 

 

It is surprising then that Zacchaeus was so intent on seeing Jesus.  Why would he need Jesus?  He probably had everything the world could give; yet something drew him to the Savior.  What is amazing is the fact that all it took was Jesus speaking to him to make him realize the error of his ways.  We read in Luke 19:8, “But Zacchaeus stood up and said to the Lord, “Look, Lord!  Here and now I give half of my possessions to the poor, and if I have cheated anybody out of anything, I will pay back four times the amount.”

 

In those days, if someone was monetarily wronged, the law required that they be paid back the amount due plus 20% (Numbers 5:7, Leviticus 6:5).  Zacchaeus was going far beyond what the Lord demanded; he wanted to make sure that Jesus knew he was serious about making a life change.  The commentary in my Bible states that “Zacchaeus demonstrated inward change by outward action.”

 

How pertinent that is for us today. Following Jesus in our head or heart alone is not enough.  Our faith must be shown by changed behavior.  If we are a true follower of Christ, it must be obvious to others that we are different; that we want to go far beyond what is expected of us to do His will.  It means not finding our self-worth in what the world has given us, but only in what Christ has given us.  It means there may be times when we must take a stand for what the Bible says is true; even when that won’t make us popular.  It means we may have times when reaching out to someone who others despise, may not be the easy choice but the right choice. 

 

So, I have two questions for you today.  The first one is, “Are you listening?”  If Zacchaeus wouldn’t have been listening to Christ, he more than likely wouldn’t have realized his need to change.  There is so much noise in our world today that can drown out our Savior’s voice if we aren’t intentional in allowing Him to speak to us.  We must listen to know His plans for us.

 

Secondly, “Is your faith resulting in action?”  It’s not enough to just say you are a Christian because, more often than not, your actions will speak much louder than your words to others.  Those with whom you come in contact need to see that you are different because of what Christ has done in your life. 

 

I urge you this week to make it a priority to listen to Christ and then look within yourself, as I am doing, to see if there are changes that need to be made so that others will see Him in you! 

 

“Just as the body is dead without breath,

 so also faith is dead without good works.”

James 2:26

Monday Morning Memo: Life's Roller Coasters

I used to love riding roller coasters.  I lived my jr. high years and part of my high school years close to Disneyland in California…so I had the opportunity to ride some of the biggest and best and I loved every minute of it.

 

Fast forward 45 years…and you couldn’t pay me enough money to ride one today.  After five back surgeries, just the thought of riding one makes me cringe because I would probably end up either in traction or on a surgery table if I even survived!  The cost just isn’t worth the momentary thrill.

 

The problem is that I am realizing these days that I don’t have to actually be on a rollercoaster to feel like I am on one.  Life can, at times, be a ride with enough twists and turns to make me wonder what is just over the next hill, all while having a knot in the pit of my stomach.  This is exactly how I am currently feeling.

 

My dear, 94-year-old mother-in-law was put under the care of hospice a week ago.  The weeks leading up to that decision and the days since then have felt like a ride on which I don’t want to be.  One day feels like the calm of going up a hill…and the next day feels like we are spiraling downward and there is no bottom.  And the most devastating realization is that when this particular “ride” is over…I, along with our family, will have a hole in our midst that will never be filled.

 

Change hurts.  Loss hurts.  And this kind of hurt doesn’t have an easy fix or an easy solution and no matter what tomorrow or the next day brings…my life will never be the same.  It won’t be a ride where there is an ending…because this ride will influence every day for the rest of my life.

 

I was reading in the 17^th chapter of Numbers this past week, where the people of Israel were once again grumbling and causing dissention.  So, God told Moses to have the people bring him twelve wooden staffs.  There was to be one staff from each of Israel’s tribes and he was to write each leader’s name on his particular staff.  These staffs were then supposed to be put in the Tabernacle in front of the Ark which contained the tablets of the Covenant.  God told Moses that the staff of the man He would choose to lead the people would have buds sprout on it as a sign.

 

When Moses went into the Tabernacle of the Covenant the next day, he found Aaron’s staff, which represented the tribe of Levi, had not only sprouted…but it had also budded, blossomed and produced ripe almonds!  All over night!

 

While I’m sure God wanted the people of Israel to see who He had chosen to lead…I can’t help but believe He also wanted to make sure Moses and Aaron knew that He had their backs.  He knew what they needed and was more than capable of handling any situation they faced.  When trouble arose…when the rollercoasters of life came their way, God could use it to teach them…to guide them…to work within them to help them look more and more like Him.  It would have been a miracle for the people to see that Aaron’s staff had budded overnight…but they also witnessed that it had blossomed and produced almonds.  You see, God was capable of doing more than they could even imagine.  

 

Just as God used this time of trouble for Moses, Aaron and the people of Israel to witness what He was capable of…maybe God is using this particular time for me to witness His ability to see me through every twist and turn that comes my way.  Fortunately, He can see my tomorrow and my mother-in-law’s tomorrow, and He already knows what each of us will need to fulfill His perfect plan…and yes, that might just include another roller coaster ride.

 

Maybe you are also feeling like you are on a “ride” right now that will never end.  Maybe your days are spent wondering what is going to be just over the next hill…and you have a knot in the pit of your stomach.  I want to urge you today to keep your eyes on God…knowing that He has your back.  He can see you through and accomplish more on your journey than you can even imagine.  It may not be a ride that makes sense and it may include some changes and maybe even some loss…but through it all…He promises to guide and direct you at every turn.

 

As I stated, the cost of riding a roller coaster today…just isn’t worth the momentary thrill for me.  But I am confident that the cost of riding life’s roller coaster with God…will be worth every second.

 

Jesus spoke to the people once more and said, 

“I am the light of the world. If you follow me, 

you won’t have to walk in darkness, 

because you will have the light that leads to life.”

John 8:12

Monday Morning Memo: Now is the Time

There were three ministers who went to a convention and were all sharing one room. The first pastor said, "Let's confess our secret sins one to another. 
I'll start. My secret sin is I don’t take time to pray for my church
members, but my members think I am a prayer warrior.”





The second pastor said, "My secret sin is that I just hate working and
preparing the sermons. I copy all my sermons from those given by other
pastors." 



 

The third pastor said, "My secret sin is gossiping and, oh boy, I just
can't wait to get out of this room!"

 

We laugh at that, but if we are honest, we probably all have had secret sins in our life.  Sins that may haunt us…sins that may still control us…even sins for which we have asked for forgiveness, but still have an impact on our daily lives. 

 

If you have time, read John 4:1-42, which tells the story of the Samaritan woman.  This is a fascinating encounter to me.  Here was a woman with a very sordid past and her sins weren’t secret.  Everyone in her community knew her to be promiscuous and I’m sure the tongues of the townspeople were kept busy talking about this sinner.  She wouldn’t have been one of the “in” crowd with the other women because more than likely, she may have slept with some of their husbands.  She would have been an outcast.  

 

So why in the world would Jesus choose to speak to this despised woman at the well?  If you read this text, you will see that He planned this encounter. Jesus chose this time, this place, and this woman to be a part of a setting where He would, for the first time ever, formally and explicitly unveil his true identity as the Messiah.  I would have thought He would have done that for the first time before a large crowd, like a Billy Graham crusade, to have a much greater impact.  Instead, He selected this sinful, promiscuous woman to be the first to hear it.  To me, that is amazing.

 

He told her…because He knew of her past.  He told her…because He knew she needed a Messiah.  He told her…because He knew she would tell others.  Because of her willingness to tell others about the Messiah, because of her willingness to be vulnerable and confess to others about her sinful past, many came to know Him as their Lord and Savior.  Jesus knew this area was on the verge of accepting this Living Water that He was offering.  That’s why He told his disciples that the field was ready for harvest there in Samaria.  And because of one woman’s willingness to spread the word, many were saved.  Notice these people told the woman they no longer were just taking her word for it that Jesus was the Messiah.  They had heard it for themselves and now believed.  You see, too often we think we need to do the saving.  We don’t!  We just need to be willing to tell those we see about our Jesus, about what He has done for us, and the Holy Spirit will make sure they see it for themselves.

 

You know, this woman could have wallowed in her sin, feeling like she was not worthy of accepting the Living Water.  Obviously, she wasn’t proud of what she had done and the sins she had committed.  She could have continued in this sinful life, feeling like she could never be forgiven for all she had done.  I think it is easy for some of us to do that too.  We’ve done things in our past which we aren’t proud of, and even though we know that Jesus says He will forgive us of those sins, we continue to hold on to them, feeling shame and embarrassment.  That is Satan making sure we don’t live a victorious life in Christ.  He wants to keep us down and discouraged.  

 

What an impact this despised, sinful, outcast woman ended up having on eternity!  If she could be used to make a difference, don’t you think you and I can be too?  Jesus can take us, with all our failures, with all our sins – secret and not so secret – cleanse us and allow us to be a living vessel for Him.  What an honor and what a privilege.  Now is the time to quit wallowing in our past and feeling that there isn’t any hope.  There IS hope in our Messiah!

 

Then they said to the woman, 

“Now we believe, not just because of what you told us, 

but because we have heard him ourselves. 

Now we know that he is indeed the Savior of the world.”

John 4:42

Monday Morning Memo: Until Then

I’ve been thinking about heaven a lot lately.  With my aunt passing away last month…it was another reminder that more and more of the generation before us are being called “home”.  While we grieve over the loss of each family member…it is such a comfort to know they are now in the presence of Jesus…worshipping and praising Him for all of eternity.

These days remind me of the song, “When We All Get to Heaven”. I don’t know about you, but that song gives me chills every time I sing it. It’s almost like having a mini mountaintop experience as I think about how wonderful it will be when I join those who have gone before me and see my Jesus face to face. The problem is that just like all other mountaintop experiences, sooner or later, I have to come down off that “high” and go back to living in the day-to-day trenches. Yes, it is going to be magnificent when we all get to heaven; but how in the world am I supposed to get through each day until my time to enter heaven is here? 

I think verse 3 in this song answers that question.  It says: 

Let us then be true and faithful, 

Trusting, serving every day; 

Just one glimpse of Him in glory 

Will the toils of life repay.

In the meantime...while we wait...we are to trust and serve. It sounds so simple, but is sometimes so hard. For some reason, our “self” often gets in the way and we struggle with just simply trusting Him. 

It never ceases to amaze me that I allowed a man, whom I had never met before the first appointment, to open up my back and work on my spinal column. Not just once...but five different times! I trusted him to do this because he had a framed piece of paper on the wall saying he was qualified. But I serve a God who created the entire universe, formed me in my mother’s womb, who knows my yesterday, my today and my tomorrow and I struggle to trust Him and take Him at His Word. His qualifications far outweigh a framed piece of paper, but trusting and serving Him doesn’t always come easy. 

I love how The Message translates Proverbs 3:5-7, “Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he’s the one who will keep you on track. Don’t assume that you know it all. Run to God! Run from evil!”   We all need to take these verses to heart. Where we usually get in trouble is when we put our focus on trying to figure everything out on our own, instead of just trusting Him from the bottom of our heart. I think instead of listening...we are often talking; telling Him what we think we should do and as a result our spirit becomes unsettled and the trenches seem to collapse in around us. 

Maybe that is how you are feeling today. Maybe your circumstances feel overwhelming, and you have yourself worked up into a lather because you aren’t in control. Possibly you think you know it all and that if God would just do what you think He should do...everything would work out. Let me ask you a question; how’s that working for you? If I had a guess, I would say it probably isn’t going well. Why? Because you are not allowing Him to have complete control; letting Him keep you on the right track. 

Oh, what a day it will be when we all get to heaven. But until then...we are to trust. Until then...we are to serve. Until then...our focus needs to be upward for that first glimpse of our Jesus which will erase all memories of the trenches. That my friend will be a mountaintop experience which will never end! 

Monday Morning Memo: Ta Da!

I’m sure you are all familiar with the song we sung as we were growing up:

Jesus loves the little children

All the children in the world

Red and yellow black and white

They are precious in His sight

Jesus loves the little children of the world.

 

It’s hard for me, as an adult, to think of myself as being “precious” to God.  That word was for when I was young and much more innocent.   But in studying the Bible, I came across two verses which jumped off the page at me.   Psalm 72:14 (NLT) reads, “He will redeem them from oppression and violence, for their lives are precious to him.”  Isaiah 43:4 (NLT) says “Others were given in exchange for you.  I traded their lives for yours because you are precious to me.  You are honored, and I love you.”

 

Me?  Precious?  With all my faults and failures?  Yep, His book doesn’t lie.  And yes, YOU are precious to Him too.  It doesn’t matter what your past has been like, how many times you have made the wrong decision, or how inept you may feel at living your life for Him.  God loves you more than you can even fathom and YOU are precious in His sight.

 

Do you know what else I found out?  Not only are you and I precious to God, we are His masterpiece!  Isn’t that amazing?  I don’t know about you, but most of the time I don’t feel worthy of being called “precious” and I sure don’t feel like a masterpiece.  But I am and so are you.  Ephesians 2:10 (NLT) tells us, “For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.”

 

If you are like me, you are your own worst critic.  Often wishing you had done something just a little better, wondering why you can’t do things as well as that person you work with, or questioning why in the world your parenting skills often look like a comedy routine.  I’m going to share advice with you that I felt God sharing with me: Ease up on yourself.  Quit knocking yourself down as if you have no worth.  Trust me.  When God made you…He said Ta-Da!  Why?  Because you are His precious masterpiece and He doesn’t make no junk!